Monday, July 19, 2010


So much has been going on in the last month, that I feel like I haven't had time to really just sit and think. I've been crazy busy working like a maniac. My last work week I worked two doubles and two twelves, stayed up 2 days for over 24 hours and really didn't feel like "myself." My past two off weeks, I've had one day that I was actually at home and purposefully did nothing. I don't know how it got like that. It's like I was just going throught the motions and only halfway getting things done. I didn't like it!!!! Therefore, I am taking the time to just sit and be still. I used to think that it was important to be involved in everything and if I didn't have something to do, it was weird. I am at a point now where I want to do nothing! I want to just sit and figure out where this life is taking us. There are so many thoughts about is this the time to start a family, are we ready. I know that we will never truly be "ready," but I don't want to wait forever. This October will be our 3rd anniversary. But there is so much to consider when thinking about it.
Both of our cars will be paid off in a couple of months. I only have one more payment for mine and about 3 for Kent's. I want to get some of our debt paid down. We are still paying on Kent's student loans and we have more credit card debt than I ever wanted. So hopefully we will take advantage of no car payments for a couple of months and get this debt to a more reasonable amount.
I want to spend more time with my family on my off week instead of trying to catch up of everything I didn't do when I was at work. Most people are jealous of the fact that I have every other week off, but most of the time I am just trying to catch up. Working night shift is hard. Flip flopping every other week back to a normal sleep schedule can be difficult. I've been so exhausted recently that it's made it a little easier.
Anyway, I feel a little better that I actually wrote this out. I want to get back to regularly blogging. It is something that I have enjoyed over the last two years, and I do have a lot to catch up on.


Heather said...

Well, I have plenty of comments regarding that post so let's just have dinner soon! =) Enjoy your downtime when you can! I miss you even though I still technically see you often!

BrandyC said...

Your'll never truly be 'ready' for the way motherhood changes your life (the good and the ugly:). But you are being smart about paying off debt. I wish we had planned that side of things a little better!

So glad you finally posted! I was getting worried about you!